Getting Back on the Wagon!

Hi Friends!! It's been WAY too long since I've been blogging but I'm very excited to say I'M BACK!!! And with that I feel like I need to give everyone some updates on whats been going on, things I've been struggling with and how this mama is ready to GET BACK ON THE WAGON!!!

So March 2015 we were blessed with baby Harper! This little angel totally completes our family and I couldn't have been more happy to get her home and smother her with love and kisses! She has been a very easy baby from the start and I was blessed again with another amazing sleeper!! What can I say....they got it from their mama!! Napping is totally my favorite past time ;)

Transitioning back to work was much easier than I thought. Being that I set my own schedule, work form home and can do a lot on my iPhone I almost didn't skip a beat, but I do have to shout out my amazing team for holding things down while I did have some family bonding time....they ROCK!!

Transitioning back to my own health and fitness is another story and where I plan to spend the most of the talking during this blog! Let me start of by sharing a funny little conversation I had with my coach.... I semi-jokingly told her that I thought being a Beachbody Coach gave me super powers to bounce back after baby and they weren't working!! Well let me tell you WE DON'T!!

I am a normal mom just like every other new mom who has to WORK for it! There is no fast fix, easy pill or magic wrap that will give me the long term, healthy results that I want. Some women are blessed, lucky, I don't know what you want to call it but they bounce RIGHT back!! Other women hold on to weight and it takes a little more work. That was me!!  I had the programs, I had the meal plans, I had the containers and Shakeology. But what I didn't have was skin in the game! And I'm ok with that. I wasn't ready and unless I"m all in I don't have success. I know how I work. 

I lost 50 pounds 4 years ago after my son (above). I started my journey after his first birthday and on the morning of his 3 birthday party I found out I was pregnant again. Sweet, I wasn't worried about the weight I was just going to gain 25 pounds after all, right?? WRONG!!! I gained 40...8 pounds more than I had with my first pregnancy.

Ok, I still wasn't freaking out....I had those super powers after all right!! Well at my 7 week check up I got the OK to start working out but had to come back a week later for my IUD which required a week off from exercise to make sure it was properly placed...So now we are 9 weeks post partum and I'm just not feeling like doing this....I was eating healthy and clean 60-70% of the time but there were too many cheats, creamer in my coffee, soda (YUCK i don't know why i was still craving this from the pregnancy), etc. Just over all poor food choices. And when I did work out it HURT!! Well no kidding!!! I had 40 pounds to lose it wasn't going to be a walk in the park. And let me tell you I cried, bitched and moaned about it the whole way through. I even gave up....several times!!

Fast forward to July....I was heading to Nashville with my hubby and our team and I was SUPER excited to be going. I was going to celebrate the success of our team, meeting some of them in person for the first time, I was going to be recognized on stage for some of my accomplishments etc. I should have been OVER the moon excited, but all I could think about was my weight. How I felt SO uncomfortable in everything. I was pulling on this, tugging at that, and again taking a back seat in group pictures. I was having vivid flashbacks of my journey the first time after my son and I started experiencing lots of anxiety. Not just a little "oh what was that"..... but I mean full fledged panic where it felt like an elephant was sitting on my chest.

Now I know life is not all about the size pants you wear, if you have a six pack or can lift a million pounds, and beauty comes in all shapes and sizes. But I also know that THIS is not me. My feet hurt when I get out of bed, my back aches, my clothes don't fit and I have two chins lol YES I'M TOTALLY LAUGHING AT MYSELF!!! But the point of this post today is to share with you that I am REAL. I STRUGGLE, I have bad days, too many cheat meals and too many skipped workouts. But its time to draw a line in the sand!!

My daughter turned 6 months old two weeks ago today and we are making some transitions. What I'm about to share is not really a big deal but can be a touchy subject so please remember if you're going to chime in to keep it positive this is a NO JUDGEMENT ZONE!!! We have decided to start weaning her from nursing. First of all I think this is so much harder for me emotionally than anything else....she takes the bottle like a champ and really could care less about the boob! But its clear that I'm not producing enough for her and she is also transitioning to solids so we feel as a family that this is the right time.

With that being said I am about to embark on a new journey as well. Starting October 12th I will be doing the Ultimate Reset which is a 21 Day Cleanse. This will help my body get rid of the toxins and is a gentle, no-starvation cleanse that will help my body get back  to its optimal "factory settings', If you'd like more information on  it you can check it out HERE. I am choosing to do this program because I want to "reset" my body. I can feel that things are "off" and my body is not functioning properly. I'm always tired (can't even blame the baby she sleeps 12 hours a night), have lots of aches and pains and like I said need to drop the weight.

But I'm not waiting to start until the 12th!! This girl is starting TO-DAY!!!! I will be following the 21 Day Fix program today through the 11th transitioning away from the poor choices, cutting coffee and preparing my body for this process. In fact I just left the grocery store getting myself set up for a successful 11 days!!

So if you're still reading this long post, thank you! I felt strongly about sharing my story, whats been going on and being totally transparent about my struggles after baby number two. I know that many feel that she's only 6 months and I should cut myself some slack. And if you're a new mom not ready to start thats TOTALLY fine do what works for you, I am just at a point where I am SO very ready for a change.....I've got some SERIOUS skin in the game!!

Please stop by to watch my journey...I'll be sharing my weekly meal plans, progress and how I am doing along the way!!

And if you're a new mom looking to lose weight, eat healthy, start working out or just looking to connect with a fellow new mom, find me over at Facebook!!